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Free-flow thought. Almost like a waking dream really . . .

Beyond Expectations

Leslie sat expecting something.

The walls flew off the room and she was surrounded by dark clouds thundering, rushing toward and over her head from a pitch black inking into the sky. A bolt of lightning flew inches in front of her face and she gripped the cushion of the chair on which she sat.

Lightning behind her crackling the air as though ever-present invisible molecules were a sheet of foil being crunched together in front of ten-thousand megaphones. Down came lightning lighting the darkness that surrounded the clouds overhead, and then, a ray of light penetrated through it all down to precisely one foot in front of her.

A cylinder of light eight inches in diameter cutting through darkness and past lightning. The color of the ray was blue, the color of sapphire that oscillated in hue from deep and soul-full to the lightness of the sky at noon. The shades changed brightness in five-minute intervals as the lightning continued crackling the sky in ever-bright all-dazzling darkness. A particle descended down the center of the ray of light.

When it had descended to Leslie’s eye level it ceased its descent. As it grew slightly in size it could be discerned to be spinning rapidly. As it continued to grow, it revealed enough detail to be blurry. A tinted blue spinning, growing for several minutes before slowing. The form was a pelican, light-blue in the light of the beam and white outside it where its wings could not be contained, then, flying out from the ray the moment its spinning stopped; it navigated flashes through darkness. Others of its kind began swooping down from clouds to join it as without formation a thousand pelicans swooped passed and around flashes of light tearing through the darkness.

A single fish fell directly into the open mouth of a large bird flying around an imposing flash of light. No bird changed trajectory or rotated so much as an eyeball a fraction of a degree as the slightest food fed but one of the multitudes of like-minded fliers; no competition was had as tasty treat descended to feed just one amongst the many.

Amidst bird and light a flame descended, as though the intention of an invisible candle without wick, down the center of the blue ray of light. The flame fell deep purple by degrees until it showed itself bright red in the shard of light repositioned from out the clear sky of another time and place. Birds and branched electricity and a red flame levitating in a sky-blue cylinder of light danced in her eyes as she sat spell-bound by the burning flicker lighting further the darkness which otherwise would claim itself a natural state.

Just as the transition again began toward purple, the flame leapt outward in all directions, breaking itself into eight, and surrounding Leslie in a ring two yards from her in every direction. In the flash of another bolt of lightning, the flames in the ring again divided outward times eight and continued to divide with every subsequent bolt.

Finally, a wing appeared where the flame had been but a moment before; it did not lower, but fluttered in the middle of the ray before her eyes nonetheless. A hand grew itself from the wing followed by an arm. The hand reached itself toward where Leslie sat; it seemed to be introducing itself to her. The hand was blue until leaving the ray where the wing to which it was attached still fluttered deeply as though made of the color of the jewel. Leslie reached her hand toward the other. For just a moment she felt her own heart beat purple before finding herself in her house surrounded by a warm summer day outside her windows.

She wondered why it was that she no longer sat upon a chair, but found herself cross-legged on the carpet.

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The Monster That Comes From The Mirror

It is made of what the mirror is made of, it is not to myself I refer. It is not to myself that I refer, but it speaks with my voice. It speaks with my voice, and it shows me what I do, but it is not me.

As I stare into the mirror the monster pushes toward me my face out from the mirror. First the face begins to push out and then the rest of the mirror around it forms into a creature like a dog. Its body shows the same colors as my clothing; my neck extends into its, unless I am naked, then it is all flesh-toned. And its teeth, I suppose his teeth, curve sharply outward to contort my own mouth. It speaks what I speak with evil intent. It tells tales of an ugliness I am that I am not. The monster in the mirror wishes to make me see myself as ugly, but it reflects only itself after creating its face of the light it has received from me.

It spits and mocks. It misconstrues and misrepresents. It has no ears to hear, nor eyes to see; it returns only a coating approximating me surrounding what is inside of it: nothingness. It speaks my face as though evil, but speaks only from its own tongue: what it doesn’t have inside. It doesn’t mean to accuse me of myself with hatred, it merely communicates its own nature with the words it has learned from me. That coating which would try to be more warns me to remember I am to cultivate something passed my smile, my hair. That monster is not me because there is something more than the pearl-shine of my teeth, or my tears of confusion, or the thickness of my brow. What is it in me that can respond to it with kindness?

Is this the only mirror from which a monster creates itself? Have all mirrors such potential?

I turn my back to the distortion of myself speaking to me from nothingness. It becomes louder taunting me to punch it silent; I remember the feel of pulling shards from my hand the last time I was hurt by its derision still. I remember looking at myself in tiny pieces tinted red here and there as I winced to clean the mess I made and make myself whole again. I remember healing and how hard it was to hold my hand back as the new mirror animated just as the old. But the pain behind the bandage fortified my will not to lash out toward the nothingness sneering at me a second time.

I turn my back to the mask of me covering perfect hollowness and speaking the same; as it becomes louder I become more silent. I feel almost sorry for it for it seems to want to exist, but then I remember that there is nothing there to exist, and I begin to walk away.

I will return to the mirror to see quickly what will help my visage better express what otherwise cannot be conveyed from the heart of I am. And when the monster emerges and the nothingness begins to speak, I will walk away again; it is then that I already should have adjusted in a useful way, to linger longer would just be in vain.

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As I am wont to do, I present a tale of sorts in free-thought format. As I was considering this time of people graduating, this was the flow of thought that came through as I turned my attention toward the tapping of short fiction . . .

Just . . .

Throwing his hat up in the air as he rose from his chair . . . Then stared blankly into the desert as he saw a hawk fly low above his head and off into the distance. From the rock on which he had given himself a moment’s rest, he began to walk away from the sun, hoping that there would be water soon to quench the dryness in his throat. Oh how he wanted to scream at the heat, his only companion, but kept his mouth shut firmly lest he let out of himself an atom of moisture more than necessary for breathing as he continued his journey through the surrounding desolation step, by, step.

It was her face in his mind that he drank as he discerned no pleasing mirage 10 miles in any direction. He walked in the direction from which he could remember coming, where he supposed the closest semblance to him not dying might be. As his name was called he heard clapping all around as he nervously walked up to receive what his years of work had earned him. He took the document in one hand while looking into the eyes of the woman whom was connected to the hand he was shaking with his other. This final test was of his coordination while feeling the gaze of thousands of eyes upon him, congratulating him. He had arrived!

It was only a large rock he had arrived at, but it was a milestone. He now could go on to create his life by his own desire and determination; he could mold himself into what he wanted to be. Drinking a cold glass of water dripping with the condensation of the warm air vapors coalescing upon the glass held to his forehead; in this glass her eyes watch him and he takes another step forward hoping for the coolness of the drink in his mind. Holding the document in his hand, he steps away from the woman who has handed it to him. A lizard scurries underfoot as a drop of sweat falls from his back and dissolves before hitting the ground.

He walks on in the direction he most believes will await him those foods he wishes most to consume. And as he takes his next step, he falls; his head hits a pillow soft as feathers, he feels a soft hand caress his cheek before he loses consciousness. When he awakens he sees her smiling his existences light upon him. What came before this moment of awakening his doesn’t care to remember; he has found himself sated upon all that matters, he won’t vex himself further by asking more.

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