Tygarjas Twyrls Blog

OK, enough technical stuff, and no politics! I just got my license for the first time in nearly three decades of existence, and that being the freshest thing on my mind, a short tale of the happenings of the past week, and why it is that I call my perceptions of what I lived a perception of God in action . . .

It was an otherwise mundane Wednesday when I went to practice driving with my neighbor and friend. An hour to do a little more parallel parking, and confirm once and for all that I can apparently parallel park better than I can drive my car straight into a parking position. And my friend tells me that I look just about as ready as can be to take the test and get my license. And I agreed, which immediately frustrated me because the test I was probably already prepared for was scheduled for three weeks away. And then God, or at least what I call God, came in.

And my belief is that for God to work in action, one must allow for God to work; one must be open to be guided by the divine, make themself usable by the divine. Which is to say, not be adversarial to some possible “higher” guidance.

And so, when it occurred to me to check to see if there was an appointment the next day what I didn’t think to myself was, “Never mind trying; I already know all the appointments are taken, that’s why my test is so far from now to begin with.” What I said was, “Couldn’t hurt to try.” And lo an behold, there was an appointment open for 2:40 the next day. . . which was too late for anybody to ride down with me. . .

So, I checked again, even though I just checked not ten minutes prior and the computer said that that was the earliest time available. And, lo and behold, there was an 11:40 slot open for me to grab. So, I did.

And I consulted with my neighbor, who made arrangements to be able to go with me. And then as I was walking down to meet another friend, he calls and tells me that he had a prior engagement he had forgotten about, and can’t ride down with me. And just as I end the call, I see just a few steps away another friend who happens to be free the next day!

And the next day is storming. A scary day to drive on the highway. The kind of day when a tester might test just a little less rigorously . . . And nearly three decades of being without the legal ability to drive comes to an end. I mean, three weeks from now may have been bright and sunny, and that may have wound up being a day I hit the curb whilst parallel parking for the tester, and then I’d be waiting even longer for the legal privilege of driving.

Epilogue:

I made a deal with myself that I’d surprise my younger brother by stopping in at his house in San Mateo once I finally got my license. And so, on the way back from Redwood City, I did. And, lo and behold, he happened to be in a play that night I wasn’t aware of; and, that was the one night I had work off, and thus could attend. And so I dropped off the person riding with me, and made my first solo drive through rain and night on the California highway to see my little brother in a beautiful performance of “The Grapes of Wrath” in which the opening of the play discusses how we all may be part of the same soul. As in, we don’t so much have our own souls as that we are all a part of the same soul.

And that to me is God in action. And that’s my story!

TTFN

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I must apologize for something that neccesitates I dwell on this topic for just a touch longer. You see, last week, when I was putting the final touches on the posting, I was in a bit of a rush to post in a timely manner, and thus left out something rather important that I had intended on cutting and pasting into the posting. Which is to say, as a result of hurrying myself, on the one hand, to post upon an otherwise infinite span of time, on the other, the result was the posting that was published; something more the result of the rush than I would have liked it to have been than if my focus had been more in alignment with the fact that the time I could have used was just about any time at all. And to be clear, what I mean to say is, if instead my mindset had been that I had all the time in the world, rather than that it must be posted by a particular deadline, the results of the posting presumably would have come out different accordingly.

That being said, this is the segment I had wanted to include in my last posting:

“And in regard to the second primordial fundamental cosmic law, and, namely, the Sacred-Triamazikamno, common-cosmic objective science also formulates with the words:

“‘A new arising from the previously arisen through the “Harnel-miaznel,” the process of which is actualized thus: the higher blends with the lower in order to actualize the middle and thus becomes either higher for the preceding lower, or lower for the succeeding higher; and as I already told you, this Sacred-Triamazikamno consists of three independent forces, which are called:

the first, ‘Surp-Otheos’;
the second, ‘Surp-Skiros’;
the third, ‘Surp-Athanotos’;

which three holy forces of the sacred Triamazikamno the said science calls as follows:
the first, the Affirming-force’ or the ‘Pushing-force’ or simply the ‘Force-plus’;
the second, the ‘Denying-force’ or the ‘Resisting-force’ or simply the ‘Force-minus’;
and the third, the ‘Reconciling-force’ or the ‘Equilibrating-force’ or the ‘Neutralizing-force.”

-G.I. Gurdjieff

And so, my explanations in my last posting should make more sense in light of this newer one.

Simply put, when you stick two polarized forces together, they harmonize, and always slightly more in the direction of the one that has more sway. And that’s how a universe is made: Something, Nothing, and all that can be therefrom.

Enjoy!

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A little off topic, but I figure truth is probably derived from something like Justice and Liberty coming together . . .

First, the long-winded preamble (The important part, the question, is in bold):

Having come to Friday, not particularly feeling like aggravating myself or any other consciousness who is gracious enough to read my words with politics, this week, and not yet having a particular topic in mind, I asked a co-worker what a good question to explore might be for this week’s posting. My, I do love my run-on sentences don’t I? Anyway, to my request for his thoughts on a topic he thought for a moment. And his answer was, “What is truth?”

So, before giving what I believe to be as close to an answer as I can put into words, I feel it necessary to answer a question I often put to myself when writing out one of these topics, “What does this have to do with God?”

The cop-out answer is, everything without exception is God, and thus everything has everything to do with God. But, while accurate, that reminds me way too much of a Lady Gaga song. So, to reach just a little bit farther, at least in this instance, I figure the relevance is that if every definition of the divine cannot hold its own in the light of truth, then a better definition of the divine is needed. And thus whatever definition of truth is given must, in part, be an attribute of the divine since, by my thinking, the divine is the only measure by which the divine can be defined. Some trick for something which at its very essence cannot be spoken since its truth is that big. But, teachings tell us attributes can be described, and so . . .

The not-quite short enough response (The answer is in bold):

Truth is that which is experienced the same, no matter from what perspective it is perceived. If any two perspectives have a divergent impression of what they just experienced, that was not the truth being experienced. And in this lies the problem of easily understanding what is truth: impression is different than word-thought, and even different than image-thought. And the answer lies in a leap of faith to those whom have never experienced in such a way: for such a thing as truth to exist objectively, one perspective must be capable of being shared between more than one person. And to any who know exactly what I mean, I say to you, you at least have a hunch of what the truth of the existence of the living God entails. And to the rest I say, seek sincerely, and you will have no choice but to find, but leave belief at the door as you make it a point to experience whatever teaching you happen to be following up with at the moment.

I could probably write a lot more about truth and perceiving it, but why? So, I leave you with the words I studied that were the first that made any blessed sense to me when I was first seeking genuinely some sense of realizing the truth, indivisible, of the divine:

The tao that can be told
is not the eternal Tao
The name that can be named
is not the eternal Name.

The unnamable is the eternally real.
Naming is the origin
of all particular things.

Free from desire, you realize the mystery.
Caught in desire, you see only the manifestations.

Yet mystery and manifestations
arise from the same source.
This source is called darkness.

Darkness within darkness.
The gateway to all understanding.

And a little music that, for me, sealed the deal:

TTFN

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